Stagnet

Reward: n, to recompense or requite (a person or animal) for service, merit, achievement, etc.

A company, downsizing, offering monetary rewards -- for performing job duties. Is that a little odd? Maybe it is just me.

A company, where management fluctuates every month, and then middle management hire duds. Odd. Yes, just a bid.

Management - who tells me, that I AM TOO VERSATILE and that is why I am not moving anywhere -- has now pushed me over the edge, wanting to quit and just start fresh with a completely different company.

I am to a point where I am not "Movin' on up", but yet, being held down for being good at doing too many things and not being "focused" and "owning" a specific area. So if this is recognized, how can I change it. The answer I get told, "Don't worry about it..." I WORRY, because not only will it be another year before I can go for a promotion, but I may just rip my hair out before then. I don't want to complain, I don't even want to say that I am unhappy as I know, how important it is to display and carry yourself in a certain manner. But honestly, I am so fed up, I feel as though I should quit, right a nasty letter to someone important and tarnish the image even more. That is only in my most angry moment of today. And knowing me, I won't do that.

Charlie Brown once said, I think I'm afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens.

This Corporate gal is just upset because not that I feel that a promotion would fix the situation, but I want to be able to say that what I am doing is being recognized. I am literally, the Jane of All Trades at work - I do everything you can imagine over a number of categories and job functions, and all I get is a pat on the back and get told, but that won't get you ahead... so why try? Why even put forth the effort to try? I simply am just upset at how society can 1. take credit for things they didn't do, 2. be okay with that, and 3. idiots at work that can't keep their mouth shut.

Pet peeve: If you don't want me to succeed or don't want me on your team, don't lie. JUST DON'T DO IT. I have never felt this horrible about my performance and abilities since high school. Perhaps the college mentality at a private University spoiled me rotten. But I honestly have not felt as useless and meaningless in a really long time. For some reason, the act of sympathy or empathy or whatever you want to refer to the acts that I have experience, more so comes across as - horrible taunting messages that basically infer the meaning of "I am better than you, and this is why -- oh by the way, it's not personal."

On a funnier side, JC came to the conclusion that I was upset at him, so now EVERYONE in the office thinks we "broke up" and are having "issues". I don't understand my co-workers, my manager, the company, or anyone work related at this moment in time.

But what really topped the icing on the cake, in a good way, is that there are people who could make my day, brighten up a room when they walk in, and when those people send emails my way, no matter what it is, I am immediately excited beyond all belief! I got an email from my Lunch Pal from 2 summers ago that made my day and put a smile on my face at least from the time I opened up the email to when I replied and closed the window.

I have this feeling that to get ahead, you have to be 1. Cut throat, 2. Really good in bed, 3. Lucky, 4. Almost too weird for words... I think that's all I have for now. But in this company, if you fit those criteria, you will rise in the ranks very quickly. People think it is just in a drama filled soap opera or magazine that you read about things such as this - but it happens in everyday affairs, just behind closed doors where the company's image is not tarnished, at least that's what the public relations team wants you to think.

Lessons to learn in school:
1. How to deal with office politics
2. How to identify office politics
3. How to find your own objectives and voice them
4. How to avoid idiots
5. How to keep your head straight, priorities in check, and back safe