Soberity

I had an extremely sobering moment today at work that really had reality kick me in the face. I always need a good kicking it seems to really understand the issues at hand.

Happiness is a state of mind. It is something that can be cultivated with the right ingredients and if using rose colored glasses, everything can be as perfect as you want them to be. With that said, this is what I have learned:

I always wondered about consultants and their lives. What drives them. What makes them tick. Why are they the way they are. And how are they successful because of it. I've had my encounters, my experiences - and finally I feel like I've found closure. I am not sure if consulting is the life for me, but if it is, I need to grow a thicker skin and really act like I'm the shit. Forgive my French. But in all reality, I basically I couldn't hack it as a consultant now because I don't believe in “screwing” over a company just to make your bottom line look more attractive, to say that you sold your client this tool, and to leave someone high and dry.

My personal experience is yes, I need to keep my personal life outside of my work. I need to draw that line clear with certain individuals and just let that be a fact. On the other hand, there needs to be a sense of trust that is built – to show that you are truly a team player, to prove yourself to others in your performance. And lastly, to really not let anything be personal – it’s all business. And that is hard. I am a personable kind of person, who yes, has to learn things the hard way, but needs to deal with this the way that it is presented.

My lunch pal, buddy bonded and I’ve found a lot of other connections that I’ve been able to rekindle through this learning process. I am one to want to learn about people, why things are the way they are, and ultimately, I want to understand the world and its inhabitants. I don’t feel like I am at that point and with the one year coming up – YES, in hindsight, I still have a gazillion more years to get to where I need to go… but I think the first year is just as important as your fifth, as your tenth or your 80^th. I think it is a matter of perception.

That is the key takeaway. Perception. How you are perceived. How you want to be perceived. And how that gets you to where you need to go. I won’t go into detail on everyone’s ideas that I’ve gotten tonight, but the spectrum is wide and the world is still my oyster… whatever that is supposed to mean in this context…

Something else they don’t teach you in school… How to deal with the Quarterlife Crisis…